Life


At one stage of our lives, we all must have thought, what is life?

Life is an opportunity given to all of us to reshape ourselve, where in rest of the souls helps us by creating favourable and unfavourable circumstances and situations. It’s a battle, where we may or may not have control over the action but the REACTION belongs to us. Our reaction should construct us for big battles of furure or next lifes. Its a continuous process of births and deaths towards perfection. 

Meenakshi Vatsa

I Am Glad You Are Gone, Gone Forever.


Loving you with whole my heart even when you made me question about all the reasons I fall for you, is my talent and heart. You have got nothing to do with it. You never know how tough it is to get your heart broken by someone whom you trusted the most. The only wish for you is that God/karma never let you go through that pain. To be honest, I still love you but I’m glad you are gone and gone forever. 

Meenakshi Vatsa

Small Mistake

“Babes, don’t leave me. We can sort it out” Said prashant to Sneha and holds her hand. Sneha shrugged his hands and again started packing her belongings in the black Trolley bag which she recently purchased as they had planned an outing. She was angry, furious, disappointed and broken. Tears were continuously running down from her pink cheeks and her eyes were swollen. Prashant was still giving trying to stop her. It seems like this time she was not in any dilemma and has decided to leave prashant and wasn’t listening to him at all. The only thing she was doing continuously was packing her suitcase with tears in her eyes. Prashant’s voice was echoing in the background- “think about me. Think about us. How I am gonna live without you? I need you. I need you here in this house with me. It’s a 6years relationship, don’t break it because of a small mistake.”

Sneha blasted – “SMALL MISTAKE! So Mr Prashant Deshwal, you still think that its a small mistake. It’s the fourth time you have done it. I should have understood in the first instance itself – Once a cheater is always a cheater. And once you catch them, next time they will play it more smartly. I am done with you and with your so called fake us and leaving you and your house.”

Prashant kept on saying that he loves her. He kept on saying sorry and asking for her forgiveness. But this time seems like Sneha had become a stone who was unable to hear anything and the only constant thing was tears from her eyes.

She packed the bag, took her office bag and phone and started moving towards the main door of the house. Prashant blocked her way and started pleading again. He tried to make her remember all the promises they had made to each other. All the vows they had taken together within these 6 years. He was constantly asking for forgiveness and reminding her that ‘us time’, promises and vows which they had done to each other.

Sneha interrupted him in between and asked him – “ok, tell me what’s my favourite colour?”

Prashant was like- “ummm, it’s pink.”

Sneha- “No, its red. And I hate pink. Well urs is off white. I am correct. Isn’t it?

Prashant said – yes, you are.

Sneha again asked, “tell me my favourite food.”

Prashant said – Rajma rice.

“No Prashant. It’s your favourite. Well mine is Pasta” said Sneha. “Ok! Leave that and tell me whats my favourite destination?” She asked.

Prashant was quiet as he wasn’t sure of the answer.

Sneha again asked,”what makes me smile the most? What touches me the most? What is my favourite thing to do in the whole world?”

Prashant held up his hands motioning Sneha to stop. “Where is this coming from and why are you asking me all this right now?” asked prashant.

Sneha looked at him, knowing that he couldn’t answer any of these questions, she asked, correctly. “Because every time, I walk away from you. You beg me to come back swearing that you love me. But how can you love someone that you don’t even know?” said Sneha and left prashant. This time Prashant does not have anything to say to stop her as well.

Survivor


It’s been a while to write anything. Tried to make up my mind multiple times to do so but I wasn’t sure about what to write and my mind was so blank at times that I felt like I was just passing the time here on Earth and one day it all will end. Thank God! I am back on track. I am again ready to handle the world with love, sarcasm, wit, kindness, emotions and apathy.
I am dedicating this post to any person who has gone through abuse – verbal, physical, emotional and mental and I will be trying to do complete justice according to my own limited knowledge and mind.
Yes, I know its a long story. It happened days, weeks, months, years or may be decades ago. And I also know that you are still not 100% over it. You are still trying to breath freely, still scared and gasping for air. Things still haunts you. You still find solace in empty, lonely places. You still avoid parties, gathering or crowded sites. According to people who know your story it’s a long and old story and you should be habitual and over from what happened but you are not. You still connect things.
But it’s OK. Trust me, it’s Ok.
I must say it’s perfectly ok. Let people say and think whatever they want to. Your life was a mess because of somebody else. You and only you know how you came out of that, how you survived, what path you have traveled and how many sleepless nights u have seen. Lets not explain anything to them because they don’t deserve or earned it and won’t even understand.
The trauma which you are going through is personal and it should not be validated by anyone. I know you are still fighting a battle daily in your mind with the person who is no more in contact. And you may have to fight till the last day. Verbal, Emotional, Physical and Mental abuses have residual effects and they just don’t fade away. They just don’t.
I know you were victimized, that was not a fair fight, you did not ask for it and yes, you lost it too. But trust me, there is no shame in losing such fights. Now look, you have reached at the stage of a Survivor and you are no longer a slave of victim status. You have all the control of your life. Lead it the way you want. Eat, drink, play and do whatever you like without giving a second thought. Let others decide. Don’t give a damn to anyone. Whenever you feel like things are haunting you, don’t run away – it’s not the solution, turn and look back, look back in the eyes of terror and tell the past you don’t live there anymore and it has no control over you. You are a new creation with an astonishing self confidence and new learnings plus you are a survivor and know well how to deal with any mess. You know what doesn’t kill, makes stronger.
Look forward with hope rather than despair. Start helping others to grow more. The abuser doesn’t stand a chance when victim decides to survive. You gave the power to someone to break you. You are still the person in control. Snatch that power back as they misused it against you. No one owes the power to break you. You and only you have got that power. In order to fly You need to shed all the weight which you are carrying in your heart and in your mind. Now you are not weak, you are not a loser. You are a Hero because you are changing the world by saying no to abuse and abuser.
You may never forget but you need not to constantly remember -You were a victim.

                                                                               YOU ARE A SURVIVOR

                                                                                                 &

                                                                                A MIGHTY WARRIOR

I am proud of you.